church today

so i was sitting in sacrament today, and it was fast and testimony meeting. john had to go to work, so it was just me and the kids. arys turns to me and says "mom where is jesus?" and i looked at her and said, "well, you can't see him, but he's inside right here, (and pointed to her chest)" and she said "inside my tummy?" and i said "ya, sort of". and i just got that ovcerwhelming feeling that i should go bear my testimony. (i think that's what kids are for). however, i am scared to death to get up and talk in front of everyone (my family in particular) so i fought it and fought it and kept making excuses up like "i can't leave my kids down here by themselves" (even tho i was sitting by many friends and family members) then the feeling slowly was going away. and i made the final decision in my head and thought "if i am really supposed to bear my testimony, john will walk in the door and come sit with us to watch the kids so i can get up there"... and of course, i knew he was working and woudln't walk in. the feeling quickly went away. and i knew that i made those feelings go away. i felt really bad all day, and wished i had the courage to go up, but me being scared just over came me. i know i will say something stupid, or stand up there and bawl through it and not get a word out. and even tho i may feel prompted to get up and bear my testimony again, i'm sure i will chicken out again and fight my urges.

i would love to hear how any of you get over nerves to get up and talk in front of everyone. and if you've ever had experiences like this, TELL ME so i don't feel totally alone on this one! i always hear " i was fighting the urge to get up here....." but in my head i'm thinking, "but you're up there, so you are so much better than me!!"